The articulation of the basic understanding bring me to a point of reflection & introspection. This basic understanding was what I needed to make any sense at all about my recurring unpleasant emotional waves, even though on the outside, everything looked fine. I had no more ways to escape myself as I got invited to discover a deeper truth.
Each step of the way more pieces of my puzzle came together. Some of them, I gathered through reading & some of them I gathered through a vast variety of different seminars & workshops, covering a wide range of perspectives. The most valuable elements of understanding & learnings came through my own felt sense experiences, they came through dancing.
Each dance & every new kind of music has allowed me to discover more about myself. It has informed me about the relationship between myself & the world around me. What I value & as a consequence, how I see & experience Life. It is only now that I’m able to articulate something that seems to be embedded in our human psyche.
We all have our unique representation of this, we are all a unique variation of Radio Love.
Through-out the construction of our radio station, we co-created a specific set of values & ordered them in a hierarchy. We co-created our basic program with all of our partner of co-creation. Some of these partners go back thousands of years & are as old as human kind. Our basic program determines how we perceive the world. Even more, it determines what we see & what we don’t.
I’m sure you have experienced this more than once. Depending on our attention, we either see something or we don’t. We automatically filter out everything that does not serve our intention or projected goal & luckily so. Our brain is not build or constructed to deal with an overwhelming amount of information at once. Or put differently, we would find ourselves in a state of anxiety & eventually depression if the situation remained. It would be like being dropped in the middle of the ocean were everything is unknown & unexplored territory. In a sense, it is not much different then being born into this world.But as a newborn child, most of our basic program isn’t co-created yet & trust is still part of our being.
The psyche & functioning of our brain has been explored, tested, examined, researched & written about, way more than I ever imagined. This observation confirms the very principle. I never valued this information before, but at some point it became part of my search. It became of value in my need to know why & find answers I could understand. Further more, it became of value as I wanted to transmit something that is founded deeper than my own experiences.
The same extensive research also confirms that we have an image in our psyche about how the world should look & behave like. The rules of the game as you like, or the tunes of the music we would like to dance to. This image is formed by all of our partners of co-creation as well.
Now, for as long as our internal value structure & our inner representation of the world corresponds with the outer reality, everything is fine. We are able to move forward. When it doesn’t, our survival mechanism gets triggered & we find ourselves in unknown territory. This can happen in big ways or in small. In general, the more of our past & future representations are challenged & shaken up, the more we generate stress & anxiety. What we value get’s questioned & in the worse case, brutally destroyed. When major chaos occurs for a longer period of time, we tumble into a depression as all are resources are getting exhausted to fix the problem. We exhaust our resources to desperately hold on to the illusions we had created.
The basic understanding allowed me to fully realize that I’m responsible for how I experience the world. I’m responsible for my feelings & my emotions. There couldn’t be any better news, yet it took quite some time to process this.
I tried various different ways to fix my problem. Allowing myself to be honest about the problem was definitely the first step. Taking care of myself, the way I wanted to be taken care of was definitely the second one. Nobody was going to do that for me. I had to discover what I truly needed to begin with.
All the seminars, workshops & lectures I attended over a period of almost 15 years, did not provide me with any lasting feeling of fulfilment or lightness of being. It is fair to say that most of them served me as band-aids, taking care of the first symptoms. They all served me to inform myself with different bits & pieces. It was exactly what I needed. They all had tremendous value & contributed in part to puzzling together the process of Divine co-creation. In my observation now, it is very much how our beingness operates. We act out what we unconsciously know & at some point touch upon the whole picture of what we had been acting out all along. We call it an insight or a revelation. The more pieces of the puzzle are available, the clearer the image will be.
Every technique & every practice I engaged with helped me to alter the different layers of my internal value system. By changing them, I came to see reality quite differently, as new elements of my reality became visible. I was able to be more at ease with the different happenings around me. Still, something deeper was calling upon me. After being profoundly touched & invited to let go of some more, I got the picture & decided to call it “Divine co-creation”.
What I propose through-out these writings, is a different route. A route were it doesn’t really matter how we came to believe what we believe. A route were we get to honor & respect all of what we are. A route, paved with choices & you get to decide.
Everything that is needed, is present in this moment!
I refer to this route as the inner journey, a journey inwards, a journey towards an unknown dream. A liberation beyond fixing anything, simply because nothing needs to be fixed.
It is by far the most amazing adventure one can engage with during the course of a life time. It is a journey of unpacking the precious gifts we were all granted with. The gift to be alive & the gift of creation. The beauty of it is that all journeys are different & unique. Yet, they all lead towards the same.
The first & defining choice to consider is to stop looking for answers on the outside. This choice has many consequences & the different dancing steps of the process offer tools to transform this choice into the best choice you ever made, consciously. Instead of focussing on the outside world, I invite you to focus on the whole world of happenings inside, even if at first, nothing seems to be happening, which nicely reflects my own case. Nothing is further from the truth.
The moment this first step becomes a conscious choice, many things happen already. Even a million miles journey starts with the first step.
Life only says YES, welcome to the process of Divine co-creation !